when there is a thing bugging your mind and you don't know which direction should you point and everybody notice and ask and you can't afford to answer it with your mouth and it flow from your eyes and at that moment you just let it out. but still , people will question you. why are you crying and there is still no reason. and at this moment, all you need is someone who really knows you better than you know yourself. they don't bother to ask you so many things cause they know you just do. do whatever you wanna do. cause you just do. theres so much things burden you lately, its hard when you had trouble in adapting peoples words,act and much more worst when you can't even open your mouth to voice out anything that are on your mind. and again you need a very big meltdown session.everything seems like impossible now, and you don't get it why it should be that way. life would be as dull as it could be. and it turn out wrong and suddenly you are afraid of any changes. and so, it is nice to be alone , not to smile and look pleasant ,a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at the sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape. and you just do like mama do by pixie lott *memang takde kene mengene -.-
